Last night I had a conversation with my roommates that brough up some interesting thoughts...I just typed out the story that I told them, but it's irrelevant to what I'm actually wanting to get at here.
Fuck it, I don't even know what I'm trying to get at besides the fact that I ended up thinking about a lot of things that were perfectly fine just buried in the past, but that I ended up just upsetting myself over again and questioning a lot of things about myself (not their fault; I chose to talk...and of course it's normal to question one's self...)
I have one week of classes left, and one "week" of finals. This week has a lab, a problem set, and a quiz in one class. Two finals in other classes (both on the same day), meetings that I don't exactly have time for, and a project in another class.
All 3 of my "real" finals occur within 24 hours on Monday and Tuesday of finals week. It's true that I can get one of those changed since I have so many, but it's also true that the professor who teaches the one final I would choose to change only gives the option of taking it SOONER, and given my upcoming week....no. I don't have time to study for *anything* this week, much less my hardest class...
No matter where I go to study, people are...distracting. I wish I could just get away from EVERYTHING and everyone for a few days and concentrate on work. I'm getting into that nasty "no sleep => overly emotional => hard to think => work takes more time => hard to sleep => overly emotional => making things more difficult for myself => hard to think => no sleep" sort of cycle, and it sucks. I don't even have anything new or insightful to say about any of the emotional items, because most of them aren't even relevant to my life right now and aren't really the sorts of things that beg for much discussion...they're just *there*. Sometimes I hate being a girl!
I need a hug. :-P
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