I just had a really crappy day.
It didn't *have* to be crappy, I just spent the whole thing being worried about the OS midterm I had tonight.
It wasn't that bad of a test. I had just convinced myself that I wasn't going to be able to do it, mostly because I've been feeling like I don't have a good idea of where I stand in the class, and I'm just tired, and stressed, and therefore prone to exaggerate things to myself...
Seriously, though. I've "learned" this lesson before. It's not worth getting upset about, and being upset is just going to make it worse. Better to figure out what I know I don't know, learn that, take the test and do as well as I can, and move on with life. It doesn't have to be nearly so emotionally draining.
A large contributor to my stress level is the fact that with the midterm and the previous 3 projects, 40% of the grade for the semester in that class has been assigned - and we haven't gotten numerical grades on anything. That's almost half of a class wherein I could be doing anywhere from (barely passing) to (pretty well) and I really don't have much of a clue about where I stand. I've gotten verbal feedback on two projects, but I haven't seen any sort of rubric, so I don't know how much the things I did wrong count against my overall grade in the class (or even an overall grade on the projects - I haven't seen any numbers, at all).
Honestly, though, that probably shouldn't matter so much. I should have a reasonable "gut" feeling about where I stand, based on their comments and my own self-awareness. I've just got this mild paranoia that there's something fundamental I'm just missing, and that I'm waltzing through the course totally oblivious to any problems I might be having, but that's likely not actually the case.
It's still disconcerting as hell, though. Disconcerting -- but still not worth putting so much energy into.
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