Right now I'm watching my older brother make choices that seem really destructive - not just to himself, but to my family. I'm watching as various members of my family sacrifice to try and help out, and as the same cycles repeat themselves.
Most people who know me will call me fiercely independent. I know that much of that is rooted from having watched this situation unfold for the past several years. I guess that as far as coping / defense mechanisms go, it's relatively harmless. I guess knowing that he can't be controlled or coerced, or even really carried has made its impression on me - knowing that in the end, we're all ultimately responsible for ourselves.
Sometimes I wonder, if he could see this all from everyone else's perspective, would it make a difference? Would it affect him? Or, does his mind just work such that it wouldn't matter anyway...? Did I make the right choices because of free will (did we have such different experiences growing up that I gained that much more perspective than he did?) or did I really just get the lucky combination of genes?
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