Change

I feel like my life has changed a lot in the past 24 hours. Really not too much has happened, but still...

-I found out that the capstone class I wanted to take next year isn't going to be offered. This leaves me with the option of joining the Honors Program and doing an Honors Research Project for a professor, hopefully researching something in my field of interest, OR instead of just taking a different capstone class. I think I'd get less satisfaction out of the class, but the Honors Project is going to be quite a bit more work. This won't be a problem as long as I stick to my original plan of keeping that as my only really hard class next fall.

-I dropped my A.I. class. It was interesting, but the assignments were starting to take up way too much time, and I wasn't learning anything that deeply appealed to me or what I want from a career. Today I've been walking around in this happy glow resulting from the fact that I just Don't Have To Do It Anymore. This is the only class I've ever dropped, the first time I've had enough give in my schedule and enough options to be able to just walk away from something that I really disliked. It also takes a lot off of my workload, and I'm also feeling, for the first time since I arrived at CMU, that I'm finally going to have some of my LIFE to myself. Whew. I literally cried with relief after I hit the "drop" button on the online add/drop page.

Today's also been a bit emotional. I'm finding that I have an extremely "give and take" sort of perspective on life. Hmm. The problem with thinking that way is that it tends to try to quantify things that aren't meant to be quantified...