People-Cats

Strange dream last night, clearly brought on by stress and being really, really burned out.

I was in a room in some hotel somewhere, and I wanted to go to sleep. However, I was told that there might be cats and a dog in my room. For some reason, I wanted to make sure the cats were out, so I set out to look for them. I came across a person crouched down in a catlike pose, and when I reached out my hand, the person turned into a cat. I stepped forward to get it and put it out, and it ran away.

I heard the other cat and dog, so I went over to them. The dog wouldn't let me hold it, and the cat kept stepping out of reach also. At one point, I came across both cats completely flattened out into little carpet squares, and they turned back into cats when I reached for them.

The whole dream was nothing but me trying to put out the damn cats so I could get some sleep and not worry about them coming after me with teeth and claws while I rested.

When my alarm went off this morning, I was still exhausted.

I feel like I don't have much energy for anything right now. I feel like I can't keep up with my work and my other commitments, and I feel like I don't have any time for myself anymore. I feel like even though I'm stretched thin and working all day, every day, I'm not staying on top of things the way I should and my work isn't the best it can be, just because I'm so tired and distracted, which makes me more tired and distracted, etc. And this is bad, because I've spent all semester in this mode, and by now I'm so burned out - and these are the two weeks when things really matter - that I feel like I'm about to wreck everything I spent the semester putting energy into, and it's all going to be for nothing.

Which is not a happy thought.