One Down

Today's been a really strange day. One thing that I'd been worrying about finally came to a bit of a resolution and it wasn't as bad as it could have been. Did something daring, with no results whatsoever and ended up feeling a bit silly. Am still waiting for a 211 grade to come back that I'm pretty worried about. (All I remember from spring break was decompressing from school and Tom, sleeping a lot, and working on that project and thinking to myself about what a sloppy job I was doing on it and I've been paranoid ever since...)

I tried to be productive this afternoon but didn't really succeed...just a lot on my mind and then a growing headache in the latter part of the evening. Hopefully tomorrow I'll be able to knock out the rest of the things I've got to worry about. I was thinking about going on a church retreat but I decided against it...Spent some time with a friend and watched Dogma and I think that was good. I can still never tell where I stand with some people, and it's really disconcerting. It's been raining off and on all day today and the apartment is really quiet. It's good to be alone, good to finally be able to let my guard down and not have to worry about everything and all the people going on around me. In some ways it's not good to be alone, but there are few enough people that I can truly be myself around that this still preferable.

Blah, right now I'm just really tired, really drained, and really mixed up emotionally...just being a typical girl not knowing what I want or need.