Ruminations

Right now I'm in the middle of a pre-lab for circuits and (this is so nerdy) but it's such a neat lab. We're designing toy versions of the Dolby filters they use to cut out hiss and some background noise on audio tapes, and the filters used to decode the signal into something that sounds good to listen to. I can't help but think back to elementary school, how getting to do anything hands on was a TREAT. This semester my only huge complaint about the labs is that they're so late... by the time 6:30 rolls around I'm not all mentally there, especially after having classes straight through for most of the day.

(awhile later)
Also I've been thinking a lot today about a conversation I had last night. I was talking to a guy friend of mine and we were discussing "women are crazy and men are stupid." Which sounds funny but it was interesting because we were tossing hypothetical based-on-fact situations at each other that represented some of the conflicts we'd had in past relationships and you could just feel the old frustrations come creeping out again. I don't know if it's scary or reassuring that some things seem to be just really common sources of conflict between guys and girls.

I think there are only two conclusions I can draw for sure. The first is that while those problems are so common, they are surmountable. For example, my parents have been married like forever (>25 years) and most people I know have parents who have also been. The second is that I'm definitely willing to wait around awhile before jumping into my next relationship: I want to be with someone, undeniably - but I want to be with someone real, I want to have a relationship based on more than "being lonely sure sucks a lot and you're kinda cute and funny."

I'm willing to just get to know people, take life a day at a time, and wait for something real to grow. Having the past month-ish (however long it's been) to just think about the relationships I've been in has been good for me. I think it's fair to say that I'm ready to step forward with life (into whatever that brings) but I'm not going to try and push at life anymore. Also much introspection regarding the past to come soon.