So, I changed the whole permissions thing back again. I thought about it and realized that if there are things I wouldn't want people to read, I probably shouldn't put them on the net at all. (Fifth grade, anyone?)
Anyway.
The past few weeks have been incredible. I can pretty much sum up everything that's happened by saying, "I'm having ideas again."
What I mean is that for most of the past year (or more) at school, I spent so much time online, chasing boys, taking classes, studying, doing homework, that by the end of the semester I was acutely aware that I had very little creative thought process left. I'm not even talking about artwork, or writing, or anything like that - just that I'd sit in on a lecture and absorb information without thinking of any questions. I'd hear a conversation and not have anything to add. I'd walk around on campus and have no passing thoughts besides "Car"..."Tree"..."Door"...etc.
I've had enough downtime recently to do things like read and watch tv and sleep that I'm having an actual thought process. (The first time I noticed happened while I was sitting at my parents' house a week or two ago. I saw something that reminded me of the book I was reading, and went off on this wild mental tangent...and then realized what I'd just done and sat there, amused.)
Yeah, not really exciting I suppose, but it's good to feel human again.
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I generally assume the whole world can read anything I post. It's weird when people I know pretend they didn't see something. :-)
There is a definite trend toward a transparent society but it places a trust on the good nature and judgment of my fellow humans some of them haven't really earned.
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